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How many people in this world look in the mirror every morning and feel inadequate and just, ugly? Yes, I am one of those people! What do you think about me? What do you see isn't the same with I had been through. Me, just me, and myself. A person who biologically borned male and it's a fact which it would never change. But, sometimes, I just love playing around with girls' stuff. Put some make up on my beautiful face or walking around with those extremely high heels. The fact that I am a man, well, I accept that, actually, I am living as a man with a woman's intelligent brain. How's that? Exciting right? The fact that I am a beauty with brain, I am not a transgender. Whatever you might have in your mind or you happened to utter, calling names, it just does not make me any more masculine or less feminine because, I am a woman by choice and a man by fate... if you can accept that, I can force you, it's your choice. A fat bitch struggling to be a skinny bitch.

Saturday, 28 February 2015

Wednesday, 18 February 2015


Semester break! Same as usual my activities are surfing the internet and blog walking day, I found this blog. A chubby woman from Indonesia, a fashion blogger not the famous one or even the pretties one but I have my eyes on her. Like I said, she is not pretty or has flamboyant looks with luxury things but I think her blog was very inspiring. It hard for a big girl to have a self confident like her.

Girlllllll! Just believe in yourself and embrace your beauty. Haters! Step aside and screw your yourself biatch!....

Monday, 16 February 2015


In each, and every entry on my previous updates, I keep telling you that I am super busy for this semester and luckily I am on semester break, for now. It will be starting in March. So, I just want to share about what I had through this semester. Basically, for 2nd semester student, I need to create a garment with a structured principle and it turned out with a diamond as my inspiration. It was hard to pull it all together, step by step and finally I manage to finish everything right on time.

Here some photos of my garment for this semester and I promise to you guys that I will update the full look of the garment soon, very soon……

Wednesday, 4 February 2015


This is the day! I’m a kind of person that only gets dressed well in certain situation and reason. When the day has come I really need to find perfect attire. Dangg!! Out of being so damn tired and not enough sleep for two weeks I forced myself to sew a new jacket for the assessment day.

Not a really tailored jacket, just a simple one, with a help from my best buddy, I managed to complete this jacket less than 3 hours. Hahahhha…  and I took the hole night to do the embellishment  on that jacket. 

Again, I paired this lovely new jacket of mine with the same shirt and a new black pvc or leather pants. It is just the skinny pants that I specially bought for this assessment day. I did tell you about the leather jacket before, I really love it. Since that day, I have more confidence to strut the runway


Tuesday, 3 February 2015


Be different, be whatever you want to be as long as it is still yourself. Haters, just let them screw themselves and don’t give a shit on what they want say about you!! Again, this semester I had to attend my faculty’s annual dinner and the best thing was they chose Disney world as the theme! 

Bammm!!  Seriously ?  Disney world ?

So, this time I chose to be totally different. I drag. I was not copying any character in Disney movies, I was just be my own fantasy princess character.  Believe it or not, from head to toe, I made everything  myself! Except the make-up part. Thanks to my pal for dolling me up. Hehehehe……


Introducing Bombshell Pink Diamonds

received an email from Victoria's Secrat Malaysia every time they had promotion and i decided to share this good news with you...

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