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How many people in this world look in the mirror every morning and feel inadequate and just, ugly? Yes, I am one of those people! What do you think about me? What do you see isn't the same with I had been through. Me, just me, and myself. A person who biologically borned male and it's a fact which it would never change. But, sometimes, I just love playing around with girls' stuff. Put some make up on my beautiful face or walking around with those extremely high heels. The fact that I am a man, well, I accept that, actually, I am living as a man with a woman's intelligent brain. How's that? Exciting right? The fact that I am a beauty with brain, I am not a transgender. Whatever you might have in your mind or you happened to utter, calling names, it just does not make me any more masculine or less feminine because, I am a woman by choice and a man by fate... if you can accept that, I can force you, it's your choice. A fat bitch struggling to be a skinny bitch.

Sunday, 13 January 2013

MONOLOG SEKEPING TISU..


sedar diri tak berharga tapi cukuplah kau sedari, derita kau yang ku tanggung…..
Terbuang  terlempar tak bererti….
Tika perlu tercari cari ..
tak pernah aku mengeluh berbakti . dalam duka aku hadir ,menghapus keringat  mengusap tangis, sendu dan sedan, kadang kala terharu.. tiap titis derita yang ku tampung menyejukan  gerola hangat batin insani…
setia menemani tak pernah kau  hayati..
menyapa mulus  wajah wajahmu , menyamar noda derita jiwa menepis keringat dikala membahang  ego duniawi.
Tapi kenapa ? pabila gembira menyapa di tabir mata aku ditinggal tak bererti ? ternyata mana letaknya diriku?  mengapa aku yang dulu nya penting kini terbiar di lantai ?
tak pernahkah kau kasihan?
Ketika itu akulah peneman…
akulah pendengar….
malah sahabat……
tak sekali engkau ingati aku lah pendamping sejati..
sehingga akhirnya takdirku terdampar disini….
Ya disini…..
di lantai jalan menjadi sampah !

monolog sekeping tisu
shamilnazri

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