SABDA PONDAN

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raub, Malaysia
How many people in this world look in the mirror every morning and feel inadequate and just, ugly? Yes, I am one of those people! What do you think about me? What do you see isn't the same with I had been through. Me, just me, and myself. A person who biologically borned male and it's a fact which it would never change. But, sometimes, I just love playing around with girls' stuff. Put some make up on my beautiful face or walking around with those extremely high heels. The fact that I am a man, well, I accept that, actually, I am living as a man with a woman's intelligent brain. How's that? Exciting right? The fact that I am a beauty with brain, I am not a transgender. Whatever you might have in your mind or you happened to utter, calling names, it just does not make me any more masculine or less feminine because, I am a woman by choice and a man by fate... if you can accept that, I can force you, it's your choice. A fat bitch struggling to be a skinny bitch.

Monday, 22 August 2011

WARKAH BUAT SAHABAT..




warkah buat sahabat

persahabatan tak akan bererti
kalau sanggup di gadai
hanya kerana keegoan diri
mengejar cinta lelaki
pada kasih yang tak pasti
kenapa persoalan ini muncul di hati
kerana aku melalui
kerana aku tersepit di sini
di antara kasih sahabat dan lelaki
manakah mungkin kau yakini
pada jalinan persabatan yang hakiki
atau cinta lelaki yang penuh ilusi
aku disini setia menanti
kerana engkau sahabat di hati
ku relakan diri melangkah pergi
agar engkau bahagia diberkati
bersama si dia pilihan hati
diri ini tak perlu kau ragui
takdir yang berlaku ku ikhlaskan hati
agar ukhuwah tak pernah berhenti
walau maut menjemput diri
kutahu semuanya takkan bererti
andai tiada persefahaman dihati
tiada khilaf yang perlu kau tangisi
tiada dendam yang perlu aku lunasi
yang terjadi tak perlu kita sesali
hanya kepercayaan penguat janji…





Saturday, 13 August 2011

MUNGKINKAH?


Mungkinkah?
Mungkinkah bersatu dua hati
Walau hanya dialam mimpi
Kernaku tahu ini fantasi
Kuturutkan jua hati berilusi
Walau aku sendiri mengerti
Kau bahagia disisi hari
Bersama musim silih berganti
Hati ini tak pernah berhenti
mengharapkan magis itu terjadi
walau telah lama aku sedari
itu semua tak pasti
kerna aku setia disini
kerna aku masih menanti
walau sampi kepenghujung hari
takkan pernah aku sesali
kerna cintaku cinta hakiki
walau engkau tak pernah mengerti...

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