SABDA PONDAN

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raub, Malaysia
How many people in this world look in the mirror every morning and feel inadequate and just, ugly? Yes, I am one of those people! What do you think about me? What do you see isn't the same with I had been through. Me, just me, and myself. A person who biologically borned male and it's a fact which it would never change. But, sometimes, I just love playing around with girls' stuff. Put some make up on my beautiful face or walking around with those extremely high heels. The fact that I am a man, well, I accept that, actually, I am living as a man with a woman's intelligent brain. How's that? Exciting right? The fact that I am a beauty with brain, I am not a transgender. Whatever you might have in your mind or you happened to utter, calling names, it just does not make me any more masculine or less feminine because, I am a woman by choice and a man by fate... if you can accept that, I can force you, it's your choice. A fat bitch struggling to be a skinny bitch.

Sunday, 10 July 2011

Bersimpuh Dihamparan Kepiluan...

Aku bersimpuh di hamparan kepiluan
Menghabiskan sisa hidupku
Bertemankan air mata
Ku kutip segala nostalgia indah
Ku jadikan azimat
Untukku tetap tabah
Bersimpuh di hamparan kepiluan
Walau setiap saat hati ini berkata
Mungkin tiada harapan untuk aku
Berdiri di samping kebahagiaan
Tetapi fikiran ini sering menafikannya
Aku tetap bersyukur
Selagi aku mampu bresimpuh
Walaupun bersimpuh di hamparan kepiluan
Selagi nyawaku masih ada
Dan nafasku belum berhenti
Aku akan terus mengharapkan kebahagian
Andai ini hanya mimpi
Tiada kudratku untuk melawan
Aku redha kembali kepadamu
Tapi sebelum aku menutup mata
Aku ingin mengecapi kebahagian
Walau hanya seketika
Jika inilah takdirku
Biarlah aku pergi dalam ketenangan
Walau pun aku tidak mampu
Berdiri di samping kebahagiaan
Mungkin disana aku akan bahaia
bahagia menghadapmu
tuhanku..
ya rabbul izzati