SABDA PONDAN

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raub, Malaysia
How many people in this world look in the mirror every morning and feel inadequate and just, ugly? Yes, I am one of those people! What do you think about me? What do you see isn't the same with I had been through. Me, just me, and myself. A person who biologically borned male and it's a fact which it would never change. But, sometimes, I just love playing around with girls' stuff. Put some make up on my beautiful face or walking around with those extremely high heels. The fact that I am a man, well, I accept that, actually, I am living as a man with a woman's intelligent brain. How's that? Exciting right? The fact that I am a beauty with brain, I am not a transgender. Whatever you might have in your mind or you happened to utter, calling names, it just does not make me any more masculine or less feminine because, I am a woman by choice and a man by fate... if you can accept that, I can force you, it's your choice. A fat bitch struggling to be a skinny bitch.

Sunday, 1 May 2011

Catatan Duka Seorang Primadona....

mendongak megah di persada awangan
walau bersimpuh kejp di bumi
hidup gah seorang primadona
hiasan mahkota ego semata
mengejar indah kiasan duniawi
menginjak keji nista insani
hilanh kesucian ukhrawi tergadai
demi kemashuran di layar kehidupan
biar tersungur ku terus merangkak
dendam terus berakar umbi
takkan terhenti denyut benci
takkan luluh d\hasad dan degki
kasih dan sayang jadi taruhan
bila cinta hanya mainan
kerana iblis beraja di hati
maaf kini tuidak bererti
selagi darah tidsak mengalir
membasuh setai khilaf
sumpah seranah umpat dan caci
ikutkan hati akhirnya mati
kini dosa suda sebati
bersarang di dalam jasad sendiri
hilang suara dan jati diri
adakah hidup masih berharga
tanpa tuhan dah ioman di hati
hanya......
kerana dia primadona yang paling gemilang
di pentas petualang!!!!!